how big are you?

how often do you have those moments when you stop, look at your babies, and realize they're growing up? i had one of those moments with each of my kids today... and now i'm a little sad. i don't want them to be babies forever, but i'm not ready for them to be "big" either! i'm just really starting to settle into my ringmaster position...

i was watching gracie talk to a friend this afternoon, and was struck by how grown up she looks... just since this morning. maybe it was the haircut... or the way she talks like a little adult... or... i could keep going, but the point is, she has grown up so much in such a short amount of time.

cale and i were in the car and when i handed him his drink, he said "thanks mom" instead of "sanks mama"... i don't want him to have speech issues... really! it's just so cute! like when he reminds me that he doesn't like "muh-stud"... i usually ask him if he wants mustard just to hear him say it. and, it really makes me sad that he doesn't say "sank you much" anymore, which was one of my favorites.

and then there's buggie... the realization about her came at the moment i had the following thought (as she was wailing): "what is this? really, lily? wait a minute... she's not fussing... is she mad? no... is this what a buggie fit is gonna look like? she's not big enough to try to assert any independence... holy crap... she is... and she's doing just that!!!"

can we finish having fits with one (cale, when you stop screaming, then we'll discuss...) before the next one (lily, get that out of your mouth...) starts? really? is that too much to ask? suddenly, i'm feeling better... not very sad anymore... i am, kind of... but not really...